Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:6-7

Friday, June 29, 2012

It's a mad, mad, mad, mad world

Have you recovered from yesterday? Or do you feel you were not affected by yesterday?

I told my mother-in-law I feel like singing that Carly Simon Carol King song from years ago "I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel the sky tumblin' down..."

Except I'm not singing about being in love.

I feel like something shifted yesterday and nothing will be the same. Of course, I guess you could say that about any day. No day can be the same as the last, but I feel like something big changed yesterday and we can't go back, and forward is going to be even bigger. Worse.

Maybe you think I am being dramatic, but remember this change affects me very personally, as my sole bread-winner and husband works for a Catholic hospital system? Things are going to change for us/him even if the HHS mandate gets tossed and our insurance doesn't change and Catholic hospitals, schools, universities, and charities all stay just as they are. My husband is the president of a foundation for a Catholic hospital and right now programs and people depend on those funds. Are charitable donations necessary under a national healthcare system? Hey if I am paying taxes I am already donating to the system, right?

And just for the kicks and giggles (though I'm not laughing), let's say the HHS Mandate is not turned over and we, the citizens of the United States, and Catholics, are forced to purchase health insurance that pays for birth control, sterilization procedures, and abortions. What then? Lifesite news is reporting that Catholic bishops plan to tell us to be civilly disobedient. We are not to obey a law which is unjust.


That's easy to say if you're young and healthy and fairly risk-free. But, what if you have little kids? Or you're not healthy yourself? Or you're elderly and insurance-free is a huge risk? Or pregnant? Or, or, or....

I can see that some people think they have it all figured out. Just drop your health insurance (saving thousands every year), pay the fines (still saving thousands) and then if you get sick, your insurance company has to accept you, pre-existing conditioned included. Seems pretty simple, right?

But what happens if you get in a car accident and are taken to the ER, need surgery, wake up in the ICU, and within 24 hours have accrued $200,000 in medical bills, all before you have a chance to sign on the dotted line for medical insurance? Yikes!

I have so many questions, and I don't know who to ask for answers. Uh, Mr. President? If I don't have a salary, is my fine the flat $95 per year or is it 1% of my family's household income? And what about the kids?

And why can't all the Catholics (and any one else who objects to paying for just contraception and abortion) get together, pool our funds and buy our own insurance sans birth control, sterilization procedures, and abortions? If we can afford the government's fine and the premiums, that seems like a no-brainer. Am I missing something? Maybe I have heat stroke (it was 105 degrees yesterday) and I can't see something really obvious. 

And now that our fair Supreme Court Justice Roberts has declared the insurance to be a tax and not a product, are all the Catholic not-for-profit charities/schools/hospitals exempt? They have tax-free status, right?

You can see why I feel the earth move. It's shaking with the weight of all these questions.

I feel the sky a tumblin' down, tumblin' down, tumblin' down...


  1. I don't know. We have the health insurance offered by the military. It's very inexpensive and it does provide contraception to people who want it. I don't. We don't pay enough in premiums to cover even our own routine doctor visits, so we're certainly not funding someone else's contraception. You are, as a tax-paying American. :-)

    I never before thought about the fact that because my insurance covers contraception, I am directly responsible for other people choosing contraception. And now that I HAVE thought about it, I still don't think that by purchasing this insurance for my non-contracepting family that I am responsible for other people's decisions to contracept.

    However, I do not believe that the Catholic Church, as an employer, should provide something to employees to which the Church is morally opposed.

    I have no idea what all this means or what action can be taken as an individual.

    But I do know that two years is a long time. (2014, right?) Anything could happen in two years.

  2. Ugh, I can't even talk about it right now. I was so mad over comments on Facebook yesterday that it was a near occasion of sin. I had to just leave the internet for a while. My husband is a physician who refuses to prescribe bc or do sterilizations/abortions, my children go to a very small Catholic school . . . will any of that stay the same in the future? Will he be looking for a completely different line of work than the one he loves and for which he is excellently suited? Who knows . . . have to keep praying about it . . .

  3. I'm right there with you, Barbara. I've been in a funk all day. I still can't believe it...I can't believe that this whole mess has turned out the way it has. You're right in saying that everything has changed...but to me honest, I believe it all changed the day Obama took office. Nothing has been the same since. I feel like we (as Catholics) have been on the defensive ever since. It's strange really, I don't feel right....like I'm a stranger in my own country. I feel like I don't belong here anymore.
    I believe that things are only going to get worse. Yes, I know that God is still on his throne and I also know who wins in the end...but, the world as I've always known it has changed...and not for the better. My husband works for the Catholic Diocese of St. Augustine, although our medical insurance is through my employer (a Baptist hospital). My health insurance is self funded by the hospital. I'm not sure how this Obamacare will affect us, but I told Dan yesterday that I would be willing to go to jail over this issue. However, I've got kids...and I've got a pre-existing condition (the big "C"). They way I see it, they won't want to pay for my care anyway...I'm almost 48 years old and if my cancer comes back...it won't be curable. I'll be on the bottom of the totem pole. I guess we are all just left with prayer. Sometimes God brings us to NOTHING ELSE so that we have no other choice but to rely on Him. I'm there!

  4. I haven't recovered, and I don't expect to. I am on Social Security,(but one year too young for Medicare) and my spouse has Veterans' medical care. If the government decides to take it all away, we will be living on the street. I've seen people in the blogosphere warning for a long time that it would come to this. But I come from a long line of West Virginia mountain people who sang the old gospel song, "This world is not my home; I'm just a-passin' through; My treasure is laid up; somewhere beyond the blue..." While we MUST stand up against evil here on Earth, we need to remember where our eternal citizenship lies. This didn't take God by surprise. He is still God, and He has decreed the end of all that tries to challenge His dominion. If we suffer for the faith, we are in good company: the company of Daniel in the lions' den, David facing Goliath, the prophets who preached truth to power and were faithful to the death, the Apostles, and all the martyrs and saints. We have long been blessed with freedoms that those in other countries envied. I pray fervently that by God's mercy, the iron fist will be stayed, but if we are to suffer the kind of persecution our brothers and sisters in other lands already experience, I also pray that we will have their kind of courage. No, I'm not the same as I was yesterday. In the words of the old song, "I can't feel at home in this world anymore." - Rosemary

  5. I am someone who would love to fight this with more then just prayer and a do not despair attitude.

    I want people up in arms.
    I want people in the street protesting everything...From abortion, to taking the 10 comm. off of govt. property and religion out of schools...I want to fight for what is right.

    If we do not...who will?

  6. Jennie, Two years is a long time, but if he gets elected again, there could be many more changes coming in two years. I don't think there is any way he is not going to elected again, legally, fairly, or not.

  7. Aimee,
    I think doctors are in the worst position. Hospital administrators are happy because they have had to write off their losses for years. Now they count their gains instead. The money shifted columns and the future looks easy.

    Doctors on the other hand have a lot of changes ahead and if we get to a single payer health care, and you know that's in the future if he gets re-elected, they will be working for the government, really and truly. Ugh.

  8. You said it all, Nancy. The only place to turn is toward God.

  9. It's a good thing to be detached from this world, Rosemary, because we see how quickly it can disappear.

  10. "If we do not...who will?" Christine, I know those who have the most to lose will probably be the only ones fighting. The young have nothing to lose and the old have already lost it!

  11. Barbara, I may be wrong but I see Communism in all of this. Where is our say in all of this? We are headed down a scary road and the only hope we have is God! I am trusting in Him and know that He will save us. God Bless.

  12. Julie,
    One would have to make the decision to not see in order not to see it. How far will a previously free society let it go? Who knows? I think the election ahead will tell much. If he acts as I think he will, B.O. will win at all cost. Will we let him? Will we be the sitting ducks that so many other cultures have become, watching powerlessly as their dictators take over completely? We have much to lose here.

  13. Thanks for this post Barbara. You have asked many of the same questions that have been running through my mind, but have expressed them more clearly than I have been able to. It's scary stuff, to be sure.

    I have just been reading about Julian of Norwich and it seems that she had asked similar questions way back in her day:

    "The love of God however, is unchangeable. No matter what outer or inner turmoil people face, they remain in God, and this is a comfort. Despite her insight, Julian still asks questions, and is puzzled by the promises of bliss. When she receives one of hte most famous revelationsz; 'all shall be well', she asked God, 'how shall all be well?'-there is so much hardship and suffering in life, and she has learnt about souls to be damned! God replies 'I will make all things well' because 'what is impossible to you is not impossible to me."

    Suffer we must. But God will prevail so worry is useless, what is needed is trust.

    Still, it is awfully difficult not to worry considering the fact that we have never personally had to suffer through such times as these...the unknown can be very frightening.


I appreciate your comments -- sometimes I feel like I'm talking to myself!