I am still missing you, my friends. My aching back seems to be bringing me double fold penance -- pain, and time away from the computer. Maybe I am getting just what I need...only God knows.
I have, however, been wanting to post this meditation from Divine Intimacy for over a week, so I'm going to sit here as long as it takes to type it up. This is just what I needed to read as I head into the week of Mardis Gras and then Lent with Ash Wednesday, and I thought you might appreciate it also.
"In order to attain divine union with God, the soul must pass through the dark night of mortification of the appetites and the denial of pleasure in all things" (St. John of the Cross). St. John of the Cross calls the total mortification of the senses the "dark night," because the soul that renounces every irregular attachment to creatures and to the pleasure it might find in them, remains "unoccupied and in darkness" as far as the senses are concerned.
It is to help us enter this night, through which we must pass in order to attain union with God, that the Saint tells us to mortify our inordinate tendencies toward sensible satisfactions.
However, it is evident that even if we sincerely wish to mortify our senses, we cannot always avoid agreeable things, listening to interesting news, eating appetizing food, and so forth. Sometimes sensible satisfactions will be imposed on us by the necessities of life, by the duties of our state, or even by our superiors. It will suffice to desire not to have this pleasure, and promptly to "mortify our senses, voiding them of such pleasure," depriving them of everything, "as though we were in darkness."
In other words, we should not stop at the selfish enjoyment of what pleases our senses, but try to raise our heart at once to God by offering Him the enjoyment we feel and which He permits for the renewal of our strength, so that we may be able to take up again with greater generosity the practice of mortification. In this way even natural joys will help to bring us to God and to increase our love. This is what St. Therese of the Child Jesus called "to rejoice for Love."
This is the pure doctrine of St. Paul, who said, "Rejoice in the Lord always"; and again, "Whether you eat or drink, or whatsoever else you do, do all to the glory of God" (Phil 4,4 -- Cor 10,31). If, on the contrary, we stop at the enjoyment of sensible things, we shall never be able to enter the night of the senses.
The soul ordinarily enters this night of the senses in two ways: the one is active, the other passive. The active way consists in that which the soul can do, and does itself, in order to enter therein. The passive way is that wherein the soul does nothing, and God works in it, and it remains, as it were, patient" (St. John of the Cross). The active way includes everything that we can do on our own initiative to rid ourselves of every affection for and attachment to creatures. For example, it is in our power to apply ourselves to the practice of poverty, corporal mortification, penance, and chastity -- all which are virtues that detach the soul from the goods of earth and the satisfaction of the senses. If we want to do all that we can to enter the night, we must practice these virtues generously, keeping the eyes fixed on Jesus, our divine model, who wished to give us an example in everything.
But no matter how much we do, our own practices will never be sufficient to destroy completely all the roots of attachments. If we examine ourselves carefully, we shall see that, even in the practice of voluntary mortification, a little complacency may enter in because of what we have chosen, which is to our liking and according to our wishes. In order that purification be complete, the work of God must intervene, that work which will bring us passively into the night of the senses. He does this by means of trials and contradictions both exterior and interior. It is a time of submission rather than action; we must be patient in the hands of the surgeon; we must accept with humility and docility all that God permits, without trying either to escape the trial or to lessen or change it.
In the Ascent of Mt. Carmel St. John of the Cross gives the picture of a soul which, "kindled in love with yearnings, sings of the happy fortune which befell it to pass through the dark night." In fact, to be brought into the passive night is one of the greatest graces the soul can receive, because then God himself is preparing and disposing it for divine union. If we wish to obtain this grace, we must do everything we can to enter the active night, that is, we must practice renunciation and total detachment.
O Lord, deign to come to me with Your grace and inflame me with Your love, that I may be able to plunge enthusiastically into the dark night which is to prepare me for union with You. Night does not please my nature which loves the light, the sun, the full radiant daylight. But with your help, and for love of You, which should I not be willing to deprive my senses of all satisfactions and to annihilate them in the night, when all it amounts to is the giving up of a few worthless trifles in order to have the enjoyment of You, in whom are all light, all joy, all happiness? Can I not then, O Lord, for love of You, bear a little darkness, cold, want, or poverty? Alas! How often have I been so blind as to prefer the wisp of immediate pleasure which creatures give me and which vanishes as quickly as darkness before the sun, to the less obvious but much more profound, true, and lasting satisfaction which is found in You by one who is determined to put all his pleasure in You alone!
"O Lord, Father, most merciful, receive, I beg You, Your prodigal child! I have suffered enough; I have long enough been the slave of Your enemies, which You put beneath Your feet; I have been long enough the plaything of false flatterers. I know that I must turn to You. When I knock at Your door, let me find it open; show me the way to come to You. All I know is that I must despise unstable and temporary goods to seek those that are stable and eternal.
"O Lord, keep far from the heart of Your servant the thought that any kind of joy will bring happiness! On the contrary, there is a joy which is not granted to the wicked, but to those who honor You unselfishly. You are their joy. All happiness consists in this: to rejoice in You, because of You and through You; there is no other. He who believes that any other happiness exists is pursuing a strange and false joy" (St. Augustine).
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Barbara; I thought of you all weekend as I stooped to haul, yank, bend, and work hard in my craft room/office area in our new home. Today I join you in a sore back club, but naturally yours sounds so much more painful than mine. Just know that you are on my mind, in my prayers for a swift recovery and I'll join you in an ice pack today. God bless you for posting this wonderful and GREAT post! Loved it! Just what I needed to read today myself. Have a wonderful day!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for enduring the pain and discomfort to post this. Absolutely beautiful and exactly what I needed to read today. I'm on a short break from deep cleaning the bathroom this morning. While doing so, you have been in my thoughts and prayers as I scrub and scour on my hands and knees. I'm offering up the displeasure for your healing.
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