Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:6-7

Friday, March 28, 2014

Another Day Another Daybook

First of all, it's been all week that I planned to get back here and thank all of you for your love. LOVE! It is so good to know that you understand, even if you don't have children who break your heart (yet), or if you have children who do break your heart. I didn't realize just how hard it was to admit to my broken heart, until I did. But you helped me, thank you. We're all in this club of women who just love our children and want to take them to heaven with us. Welcome to the club. {wink}

Outdoors...it's supposed to get warm today. I said that last week and since then we had snow, and cold, and thunder, and lightning, and heavy rain. It's SPRING! Crazy weather spring. It's really windy out right now (I can hear the wind whipping though the chimney), and dark, dark gray skies, but I think the temps, they are a rising.

I am thinking about...leaving doctors behind and working harder on my own to get my health back. Yesterday was a frustrating day. I spent hours gathering together the results of my recent MRI (yes, I had to go for another) and x-rays, getting prescriptions filled, and waiting in a neurosurgeon's office for a very, very long time. Then he told me, "Sorry, I can't help you. I don't do that procedure." It seems no one under my insurance coverage does this procedure -- nerve ablation. At least none that I have found, and I have looked long and hard and been told "no" quite a bit. And I am tired, so very tired of doctors, actually to be specific (no pun intended) -- specialists. I left the office with a heavy heart and prescription for a corticosteroid for my back (Pray for me please, I started it yesterday and if you have ever taken them you know it's not fun. I have five days to deal with not sleeping, headaches, hot flashes, and "having my engine revving." I can do it -- it's just five days, right?).

My condition is not life-threatening, it just makes it difficult to live the way I want to live. But, I am going to try to do as much as I can on my own. I know that I have inflammation, and extra weight, and several other medical conditions that I have to be on medication for. So I am exercising as much as I can -- on my recumbent bike for now because the nerve pain in my leg does not allow for walking far -- and I ordered a juicer, so I will substitute some meals with real juice (not a fast, and low Vit K).

I am wearing...a denim skirt, a t-shirt, and a sweater (I have to be able to cool off fast when I get a flash from the corticosteroid), white keds.

I am creating...I'm back on rosaries -- I have supplies to make two for my husband's aunt, and supplies for several more for my shop. I made one last night to put in my shop today. I still have some "coats--now vests-- of many colors" for the dance studio to finnish, and I need to finish my baby quilt, the piecing is done and the colors are so pretty.

I just love these pretty shells -- the symbol of Baptism.

At the school table...Faith is still trying to focus on getting breakfast. She is scatter-brained, but by 1:00 she'll be angry that she is not finished with school and it will be "all your fault!".

On the table...I had bean and cheese enchiladas planned for dinner, but I'm not sure we'll all be in the same place tonight. I am babysitting the twins next door and Noah is going to meet a friend and Doug will be chauffeuring

A few of my favorite things...
...rain and thunder (hold the lightning)
...wind (a cool wind is a great thing for a hot flash)
...sleep (I didn't sleep much last night so I might try to sneak a nap in today)

Prayers sent heavenward for...
...my husband and children
...all those who are sick and alone
...my son, to learn his chemistry and algebra this semester, and if summer school is in His plan, then so be it
...our priests and religious, especially our parish priests, and Fr. Howe
...all the babies whose mothers are contemplating abortion this week, for a change of heart

A picture thought...

Faith saw our favorite duck couple in the creek yesterday. She has been sprinkling cracked corn on the creek bank for a week or so and was so hoping they would stop and visit. They not only stopped, they came up into the yard where Maggie chased them away. Faith went after them with more corn in hope that they would come back. She still thinks she's Snow White, or Sleeping Beauty, and the animals will come to her. She had on a pink nightgown, black fur-collared sweater, and purple rain boots -- quite a getup.

Ave was hoping she would come home with some Roasted Mallard Duck with Red Currant Sauce

But she just came home dirty. And happy. Silly girl.

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  1. No dirt on that pretty white dress!!!

    I grew up on a game farm and we raised 3,000 baby ducks every spring. She would have loved that??!!

  2. Oh, Christine, she would love living on a farm! She is an outdoor girl all the way. She reminds me a lot of YOU!

  3. Hi Barbara, I have a few medical issues myself, namely low thyroid and very low iron. I have inflammation, too, and weight has been much, much slower coming off over the past few years ... I have been tired, having low energy for as long as I can remember. Meds did not help to stabilize my thyroid, so the dr. just kept increasing my dosage. I finally went to a "functional medicine practitioner." She is helping me tremendously—all through supplements. (I am on 15 different vitamins. I take them at 3 different times per day.) She did extensive blood work and explained it to me in detail, how everything in the body is ALL connected, how this affects that, etc. In just a couple months, my thyroid improved, and my iron went up to a whopping 16 (as opposed to 6). It hasn't been that high in YEARS. I feel hopeful that my health struggles will go away with the supplements. I go back at the end of May, and our goal is that I will eventually be able to reduce my thyroid med dosage in half. The reason I am telling you this is because I also was tired of drs. not being able to help me ... Not just give me a drug but really help to correct my issues. There are other things to try—good for you for trying to do a few things on your own!! I just thought I'd share a little of my journey, for what it's worth :-) I will keep you in my prayers!

    I love those pics of Faith! She is like my Olivia!! Outdoorsy all the way!

  4. I LOVE the pictures you shot of your daughter! It reminds me of something along the lines of a modern Jane Austin! I have added you on my prayer list. Especially that God places the right health provider in your path.

    1. Haha...she is a modern Jane Austen, probably Lizzie! She talks a lot and has big opinions! And muddy hems. ;-) thank you for your prayers.

  5. after a year of being misdiagnosed and taking pills for something I did NOT have..i think I am finally on the right track. I will pray for you...hanging with Drs and popping pills and still feeling awful is no fun at all. Remember, you are not alone and God will give you the strength to get through. And drink wine. I really hope with the diet and meds you can still drink wine! maybe a dash of merlot in the juicer?

    1. Really, I'm not supposed to have any alcohol -- it really messes with my INR (blood clotting time) when on coumadin. But, I think a regular little bit of Cabernet Sauvignon, or a Sangria in the summer time, can't hurt. I think it fits it with my new health goals.

      My doctor wants to talk to me about going to the Cleveland Clinic for treatment (we're in central Ohio) but that's out-of-network and so I have to find out how much that costs. Working for a hospital system (my husband) is not as good as one would think. Out-of-network means out of their system and they don't want to pay squat.


I appreciate your comments -- sometimes I feel like I'm talking to myself!